Unashamed Love

"You're calling me to lay aside the worries of my day. To quiet down my busy mind and find a hiding place. Worthy, Worthy. I open up my heart and let my spirit worship Yours. I open up my mouth and let a song of praise come forth. Worthy, You are worthy. Of a child-like faith, and of my honest praise, and of my unashamed love. Of a holy life, and of my sacrifice, and of my unashamed love."

I've been listening to this song for a few days now and trying hard to grasp the meaning. But it feels like I can't. The songs says I'm called by God to "Lay aside the worries of my day". Yet I worry about everything, from school, to extra cirricular stuff, to work, to parents, to family and friends, to uni apps, to relationships, to accountablility, to my spiritual walk, to anything and everything. To the point I'm so stressed out that I'm physically ill. According to my doctor, I'm now suffering from Chronic Stress. Meaning constant stress, even though I really shouldn't have anything to stress about. And the Chronic Stress has the side effect of Chronic tension headaches. They're headaches that don't go away, even with sleep. It's due to some muscle in my head not resting enough and cramping up. Only thing that helps is medicine, lots of it. And it really sucks, because it's my worrying that got me to this stage. To the point where I have headaches 3,4,5 days in a row without end. It sucks. But listening to this song, it reminds me to just, find some time to rest in His presense, in His peace. But its becoming so hard. The headaches make it harder to concentrate, and I hate doing devos half heartedly. Thats the worst part. I would rather not do them, then just "kaow kaow kei kei" do them. Which means past two days, I haven't really done devos... Just listened to this song again and again. I really need to pray hard, and try hard to relax. Because if I carry on like this, I don't want it affecting my spiritual life... So if you read this, please pray for me. I want to be able to worship and pray and meditate on God's word wholeheartedly without a headache in the way. Thanks <3